I feel sometimes that my thoughts may be too heavy for others that is why I start to write them here. I need to get them out as it is a part of my cleansing. For many years I held things in and if you keep doing that it will boil over. When I was younger I was a cutter, it just gave me a sense of lightness as it felt like I had held my breath for years and could exhale. After each time I felt cleansed. I don’t know what I was cleaning though. I know some of the reason is because my parents left me behind and I wondered often if they didn’t want the child with the broken eye.
They had their own things going so I felt left out. My granny’s birthday was the day before yesterday. She is still jovial as usual. She asked me to go to church with her Sunday for a convention. I had to decline, but she understood, not really but she will, one day.
They had their own things going so I felt left out. My granny’s birthday was the day before yesterday. She is still jovial as usual. She asked me to go to church with her Sunday for a convention. I had to decline, but she understood, not really but she will, one day.
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